“There is a crack in everything. That’s how the light gets in.”
This is an excerpt from Leonard Cohen’s song “Anthem” that I saw posted on Instagram.
After a year of best laid plans falling apart, we began 2022 by making something just to break it: peanut brittle, using this easy recipe from In Diane’s Kitchen.
2021 felt like a year of constant planning – creating Plans A, B, C… X, Y, Z – and re-planning when things went sideways.
The year felt hard, because kids like T thrive on routine and repeated shakeups such as the ping pong between in person and virtual schooling shattered hard-earned progress.
The last few weeks of 2021 felt exceptionally hard. In addition to T’s challenges at school, Ma’s health took an unexpected turn for the worse: muscle disease.
Ma’s condition shows that we all can be strong but in the blink of an eye, one’s body and mobility can fall apart.
There were recurring moments this fall when I did not feel like myself.
Surprised by Joy blogger Wynne’s post about Groundlessness provided an apt word that captures my mood: I felt groundless, because the accumulated challenges felt crushing on the ground I seemed to walk on.
Cohen’s lyrics resonated, because the past few weeks reminded me that in weakness, one’s faith – religious or not – can be strengthened.
I am often an optimist and it serves me well. But as a special needs parents, I often feel the need to hold it all together.
The last few weeks showed that by stumbling through cracks, you learn to find new footing.
Making peanut brittle was a fun activity to do on a lazy New Year’s Day.
T gave us an unexpectedly rare morning off when he woke up at 11!
My eyes first opened at 9 and I had thought about checking to see that he was breathing but I was enjoying the silence too much!
The last two weeks have been great actually. Even though T was home this past week, I slept in and took lots of naps. It’s amazing what sleep can do for your mood!
When I saw Ma on New Years Eve, her medication seems to be improving her condition.
After a bumpy few weeks, I am starting 2022 on sweeter footing.