Night hikes are a camping tradition and when darkness fell, we excitedly set off for the rocks.
After our spontaneous sunset swim and jumping off beautiful rocks at Killbear, we roasted marshmallows and made s’mores at our campsite.
T was now sugared up on s’mores and a watermelon slush from dinner.
He was bouncing off the walls with excitement for the hike – climbing trees and jumping off a boulder and picnic bench on our site.
It was past his bedtime and he was overtired and getting mouthy when we asked him to calm down.
But we knew these hikes happened once a year, so we changed to long sleeves, put on bug spray, armed ourselves with flashlights and set off back up the rocks.
We passed by the dark beach and it was calming to hear the water and see silhouettes of people enjoying the evening.
It was more challenging to hike up the rocky inclined path in the dark, navigating the jagged or slippery rocks and tree branches and roots.
But the view at the top was well worth the trek – beautiful Georgian Bay lit up by a full moon.
With no light pollution that we often have in the city, the stars were in clear mesmerizing view.
We lied down on the rocks and looked up at the sky.
T watched the stars for five minutes cradled in the hubby’s arms then decided he had enough.
He got up and started running around, fiddling with his flashlight, getting light in the hubby’s face – annoying him as he missed the two shooting stars that I saw.
Sitting in the dark, I let my mind tune T out and I focused on the gift of this moment.
It’s been an interesting journey parenting T and there truly have been some hard lows – moments when my mind went to truly dark places.
But the blessing of this night reminded me that we can let darkness consume us or we can focus on the bright stars.
I made two wishes with the two shooting stars I saw. And no, it was not to take T’s FASD away. It’s a part of him and I’ve made peace with that.
I wished for T to grow up happy, healthy, independent and self sufficient, successful, and to be surrounded with light, love and friendship.
I believe this wish is within reach.
T can be a real pest and he drives us batshit crazy often – but he is good at his core.
On our hike up and down the dark rocky inclined path, T had no problem zipping ahead of me. I am a slow hiker as I love to savour the moment.
Every few moments, T circled back to me to shine his flashlight on my path. “Here you go, so you don’t trip.”
Often times, I think it’s the hubby and I that’s shining a light on this kid’s path in life – but really, he also illuminates our lives with his bright light.